Never realized how lonely a birthday can be when you dont have a boyfriend to take you out.





Oh the single life, how I don't really like you.

I'm sure if my life was a reality show, it would consist of me looking at twitter a lot.

waking up at 5am, check twitter, go back to sleep

wait for the bus, check twitter, tweet about some ring ding on the bus

walk to school, check twitter, not get hit by a car

walk into class, check twitter, doodle, check twitter, fall asleep

eat lunch, check twitter, try to read a book, fall asleep




i gotta get my life in order. lulz

WHY DOES PLUCKING EYEBROWS HURT SO GOD DAMN MUCH?!?!?

a HIM and 69 Eys tour would be the most boring tour to ever exist in the history of tours.

You don't know this is about you.

but I do not doubt when I meet you, I'll probably punch you in the throat.





<3

Its quite obvious Michael Jackson's death is going to be like "where were you when it happened?" kinda thing.

Sadly, my response would be ".. I was sitting in front of the computer in my underwear twittering when I found out"

If i ever decide to follow a tour, i'm going to create a photo album on facebook entitled "I'm not fucking stalking you assholes"

If I play my cards right and I'm calculating shit correctly, I could be out of college by next January or next spring.

How's that for an update?

ugh, ate too much.


feel like puking a bit.

So I was watching the Tyra Banks show this afternoon/evening.




.... I am totally convinced that Tyra will one day steal a baby.

60,000 miles used to get from NYC to Helsinki with a layover in Paris and/or Amsterdam via Coach.

This doesn't include a hotel.

I need an estimate $3000 (for hotel, food, shopping, etc) for about a week.


Currently have $500 saved up.

I need a job, I might either try working at St. Marks comics or Game Stop starting the spring breakish. Passport's in check. Boy am I ready.

GTFO BELLA SWAN YOU SLAGGG!!!!!!!


I'm listening to the Twilight series audiobooks (because I don't read much). I really hate Bella, she's so fucking stupid. Wahhhh Edward. Wahhhhh Jacob. Wahh wahh wahh I want to die but not really but kinda yea waaaaaaaaaaaaaah

Am i the only person that think Mark Wahlberg and Matt Damon look the same?

that's it. For my birthday this year, I'm going to get tattooed.

and I'm going to get shit faced.


and I will be starting to gauge my ears. I need a new look, and it's going to be hot.

LOL at everyone going all ape shit on Russell's comments about the JoBros. I'm not being biased, but I feel the same way about purity rings.

Yay, you're married to God. I really don't get it. If you're married to God and you masturbate, you're having sex with yourself instead of God... therefore cheating on God? What good is the ring on your finger when it's the genitals that are doing all the work?

Whatever, sex isn't a bad thing.

And Jordan Sparks needs to STFU. I don't wear a purity ring and I'm not a slut. I'm not a virgin either, but I'm not a slut.

Hurrah to Tokio Hotel beating out JoBros also. I'll admit it, Bill looked adorable as a shocked person. I'm still amazed by how tall he is.. .. like a tree that boy. Obviously these awards are "fan based" so the win signified JoBros Fans < Tokio Hotel Fans. Doesn't really matter to me though, I think both types of fans are terrifying.

All the performances were terrible with the exception of P!nk. Why is Rihanna performing twice? Jonas Brothers performance was lack luster.. OMG, singing a crap song on a porch.. Oh, the setting's fake... here comes a bunch of fans for the last 30 seconds of a song pfffffttt. Paramore's what I expected. How is Kid Rock relevant? WTF at Kanye West singing? Isn't the closing of the VMA's suppose to be spectacular? I was bored outta my mind with his performance.

Russell was pretty much my highlight of the VMAs this year. I really should've spent that time doing my homework though.

On a scale of 1 to 10 I'd rate this VMAs a wopping.. .. 3.5

Who just got tickets to see Russell Brand?



This guy *thumbs pointed at me*

The Virgin Megastore in Times Square, that behemoth depository of all things entertainment at the crossroads of the world, will be shuttered in the first quarter of 2009, according to reports.

Vornado, the company that owns the property, is forcing out the struggling chain so that it can up the rents on a new tenant, according to Reuters.

Virgin pays $54 a square foot in an area where rents can easily fetch $700, an executive vice president at Vornado told Reuters.

The chain's Union Square location should also vanish early next year, a victim in part of escalating rents.

source

This saddens me greatly. Where am I going to go to get import magazines now? D:

So apparently, someone already ripped the new HIM DVD and posted links for downloads. Yea, bad stuff but it's something that is going to happen. People rip and download things they could've paid $30 something for. Whatever.

I appalud the people that are trying to protect the band's wallet though. Record and DVD sales are incredibily low since people just pirate shit. Bravo.

What I really have to go off on is how people are reacting. Oh wahh, you missed out your opportunity to download. If you really want to download things, google search it and you'll probably find it. Other people'll upload it onto youtube or dailymotion, it's not that big of a deal if the download post in a livejournal community was deleted.

Someone brought up being a HIM Street Team Leader and then stated an opinion. Uhhh... yea, you know, Street Team Leaders of a regional branch of an overall team has ZERO authority in a livejournal community. Hell, we don't have any real authority... period. We're just minions working as free labor for the big bad record company. We spend hours and money to promote a band we respect and love for free. That's the bottom line. I think it's incredibily stupid to wave that title in front of people's faces. So what? The underlining thing is, before the fake title, we were fans. End of Story, the end. There shouldn't be a hierarchy within the fan community, but unfortunatley there is now. That's upsetting and I'm quite embarrassed.

I've actually been feeling embarrassed about a lot of things other people do. For shame.

Is anyone else getting tired of this whole "America is ruining HIM" argument?

Let's get the facts straight.

HIM is NEVER going to do another album like Greatest Love Songs or Razorblade Romance ever again because;

a) The whole band is at a different stage of their life compared to when those albums are made.

b) The band is "fucking old."

For the passed 4 years the band has been focusing on the U.S. and it probably doesn't help that the record company is based in the U.S. either. So for people to be all like, "wahh, all the Americans are getting the good stuff" is ridiculous. Why? Because the Europeans got the band when they were at their PRIME, which is already the better part of this whole fucking situation.

Oh wahh, so you don't get a stupid flashlight in your Dark Light package or fake Polaroids with your Venus Doom (which was TOTALLY NOT WORTH PAYING $60 FOR). You guys had HIM when Ville did more than stand in the middle of a stage and smoke cigarettes. And you guys had the better merchandising for pete's sake (who's pete? I always wondered that).

And that is the word.

In case you didn't know

I have carpal tunnel. :(

and the flu


so this is the best week evar for me.

The circles under my eyeballs are terrible.

I had a panic attack and started to cry while in the middle of taking my final.


This isn't good.

Yay

My threadless shirts came in the mail todayyyyyy.

Rock Band is coming out on PS2!!!

Dec. 18

That's going to be insannnneeeeeeeeeeee!

5 days until the HIM concerts. Yes, that's plural.

Though I am what people may called "obsessed" with HIM, there are just a few things I fucking refuse to do because it's damn stupid.

I will not call my boyfriend Valo or Sir Valo for that case.
I will not name any pets after Ville or any of the band members.
I will not celebrate Ville's birthday by making a cake/a video/buying a gift and giving it to a poster of him or posting it somewhere where he'll probably NOT read it.


There's a fine line of what is obsessive, and what is down-right bat-shit crazy.

And I have to say, I'm actually starting to teeter away from "obsessive" and going into the "like a whole fuck of a lot" area.

I don't know why I insist on trying to dye my hair purple. It never comes out, never. It didn't work when I was in high school, why should it work 5 years later? Stupid brain, think next time.

But I did the fuchia to work, and I have to say, my hair looks FABULOUS with it.

Exactly one week until my 20th year anniversary of living.

I've been looking at pictures/videos of me from Friday.

I really want to make myself an icon that says "fat people run really slow"

because I'm fat.

and the video looks like we were running really slow.




When I thought I was running really fast. The sad truth of it all. Pic post later.

I don't know whats wrong with me. Why am I feeling so restless? Why is it getting harder for me to to fake a smile?

I can't stand myself.

I got pepper in my eyes.

it burned.

When cooking and you're measuring pepper in your hand... do not rub your eyes.

Would anyone really be surprised if Zac Effron announced that he was gay?

I don't know what the fuck was up with today. I feel like total grade A shit. My eyes hurt, my stomach was upset, I haven't felt like eating, been too damn thirsty. I felt like dying today.

*sigh

I really hate this feeling. Good thing I didn't go out, I would've been a bummer.

ITS FUCKING HOT!

I don't know about today.

I've been having a really uneasy feeling, like something's going to go wrong. Almost like I'm going to fuck something up in a not-so-good-intentionally type of way.

I feel like throwing up, I feel THAT uneasy.

I hope everyone's okay.

Ace1spk2: hey sams. do u know anything about flash or php?
xrealitydistortd: i know flash
Ace1spk2: oo can u teach me a thing or two about it. i know pretty much nothing of it.
xrealitydistortd: kinda hard to teach over the computer
xrealitydistortd: but i can try
Ace1spk2: please do : ) ....
Ace1spk2: i'm a very apt person
Ace1spk2: i think thats the word.... hmm.... or is it >.>
xrealitydistortd: i just read that as.. ... you're a very apartment person..
xrealitydistortd: which.. doesn't make any sense to me anyway
Ace1spk2: lol yeah i was thinking the same thing hahah
Ace1spk2: it does mean something though. i think it means something like well understanding or smart or something
Ace1spk2: hmm... w/e. english never really was my thing
xrealitydistortd: lol

2 cents for thoughts are silly, hence why mine will now be $2.50. On-ward ho!

Private myspace pages are silly, this is something I say quite often and I stand by it completely. Myspace is where people go to collect friends, stalk their crushes, find new bands, etc. If you don't want someone to find you, or find any information about you, why even bother having a myspace in the first place? It's not even on just on myspace, it's any online community. Granted my livejournal is usually locked to friends only, the things that I hold dear to myself and don't want the rest of the world to know, stays with me, not the internet.

I'm totally ready for school to be over with.

Sup, Livejournal world and all those who stops by?

It's been quite a while since I last made a real update post on me. Hopefully this will be interesting.

Chinese New Year was last month, lucky me, I received $380 from family. I have to deduct money from it now for concert tickets and contributions to projects I'm apart of.

Started a promotional company with some close friends. We're working long and hard on trying to get everything figured out and it's all coming together very well. All we really need now are bands who want us to help them. Baby steps, I really see this growing into something spectacular in the future.

Looking back to how I was in high school, I think I can say I really grew up. I don't shun music as much as I used to, I opened up and socialized. Needless to say though, I'm still terrified of people.

I've been working hard at school since my GPA isn't where I'd like it to be. I've stopped bullshitting around and I'm trying really really hard to do my best.

I introduced Momiji (the bunny) to Truffles (the guniea pig) earlier on this month. They didn't seem too phased by each other. Truffles was scared during the first meeting, but Momiji, being the curious bunny he was, just sniffed Truffles and hopped away. It was quite cute.

I went one of Comedy Central's Campus Invasion thing at my college last night. The comedians that were there was Christian Finnegan, Nick... soemthing, Aries Spears and Tracy Morgan. Everyone was hilarious, except for Tracy Morgan. Tracy Morgan had the biggest time slot, however, he was noticeably on something. Not.. like a stool or whatever, but... he was either drunk and/or high and it wasn't amusing. Granted he was funny for about 10 minutes, then he milked his jokes and wobbled around on stage. All the comedians went on the dirty joke tangent, but Morgan went to the extreme... and made me feel a little uncomfortable in the end. Meh.

Well, off too do other things.

The 69 eyes Concert @ Starland Ballroom was last night.


Can't say it really made me go "oh wow!" it was "ehhh, alright" for me. My gripe is mainly on the balloon headed douchebag security guard though, his stupid head stole a majority of the flash from my pictures.

The pictures were "eh" at best also, everything's fucking red.

But the videos came out okay. ... except when said douchebag security guard's heffer sized head and nose popped into the shots.


Motherfucker.

Pictures... eventually.

You all need to check out a brand new fansite.

and no, it's not a HIM fansite, its a Vains of Jenna fan site, the original. Fuck myspace.


www.hardtobevain.com

Thank God for Redbull.

Only I can manage to fall asleep in the middle of a cafeteria. I can't wait to get home and pass out.


New digital camera is coming in tomorrow which means... cam-whoring funness for me.

Hunny, you fucking asked for it.

Shut the fuck up.

Don't like how the board is run, leave it.

So apparently there is a myspace bulletin going around telling kids to not go to school September 11th.

That's probaly the stupidest thing I've heard. Do you know what having off on September 11th would mean? Why just September 11th, why not the day the bomb Pearl Harbor or any other day where tons of people died? Did the people in England have the day off for the London Underground train attacks? Probably not. I wrote something a couple of years back that ended up in the newspaper. It was about your thought on September 11th and I remembered being in school and overhearing other students, "we should have like, a week off for it." Why? Wouldn't it be like celebrating thousands of lives lost?

I know a lot of people were effected by the 9/11 attacks so I understand if some people need to morn for whatever reason they have on that day, but is it necessary for everyone else to use it as an excuse to not go to school or go to work?

whatever, I think it's a dumb idea.

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